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Yeah? I thought he wasn't exactly Chad's biggest fan. But I've noticed, I just didn't want to point it out in case you hadn't.

We've never really talked much and I imagine he now probably believes I talked you into dumping him, so I'm not sure how to strike up a conversation.

Oh, he's not. I just know he'd do it if he thought it'd make me happy and maybe he's just as sexually crazed as I am. [A light shrug.] I didn't at first. I think I just noticed it one day when he put on one of my Wildcats shirts and then it hit me and now I'm sort of wondering what that says about me.

…that may or may not be true. He figured out that you and I talked before I dumped him but. I don't know. I'm sort of just letting Troy handle everything, he's so wrapped up in his fantasy land I don't think he even notices. It's just that Chad's been pretty quiet lately, too.

Would you be fine sharing your Chad with your Troy look-alike? I mean, I've heard girls have fantasies like that back at East, so maybe you have a point.

Given the hissy fit he threw on Facebook resulting in your sister making fun of him, I guess that's understandable.

…I don't really do sharing well, you're right. Next question. [He's just taking the spoon from her then, scooping up some more ice cream for himself.]

Can you blame Shar? That was totally unnecessary.

Of course you don't. [She holds the ice cream closer to him and raises an eyebrow.]

What part was unnecessary?

I had to share with Sharpay my whole life. My life was a battle until I was 18, why should I share now?

Him freaking out on Facebook. "Nothing's fair." Yes, I know.

I wasn't actually seriously suggesting you share. Chad doesn't seem the type anyway.

[She looks at him for a moment before tilting her head and reaching out to ruffle his hair.]

You broke up with him over Facebook, Ry.

Probably not. Not with his rampant jealousy.

[He leans into her hand, looking a little more pathetic as time goes on.] I'm not sure I meant to. I just let my fingers move faster than my head. And then he emailed me and confronted me, so I panicked and then I lost my boyfriend. [Let's just keep eating ice cream. Good plan.]

You could have backtracked at any point.

Do you know what's part of the problem with wanting things? It's that you have to actually know what you want.

[She kisses his cheek and reaches for the spoon again.]

Time to figure it out.

Could have would have should have, and yet I didn't. What does that tell you?

[There's a heavy sigh and he hands over the spoon, nuzzling at her face briefly because he's being clingy.]

How am I supposed to figure out what I want when I usually have everything?

Gee, Ryan, that makes me feel so sorry for you.

I don't know what that tells anyone. You've been wanting Chad for over a year and when you had him, it wasn't worth it? What does that tell you?

[...time to feed him more ice cream, apparently.]

That...I'm exactly like my sister? [He'll just let her feed him ice cream and shut up for the moment.]

No, you're not. She never really got what she want in that area, did she? Well, maybe now.

Because she was going after Troy. But she still tried to destroy people. I guess maybe I'm the better twin because I actually succeeded. Funny, huh?

You never tried to destroy anyone, Ryan. And you don't have to keep comparing yourself to Sharpay. You're sweet, that's why I like you. That and your fabulous hair. Also you can hit really high notes, very endearing quality to a songwriter.

I knew you only kept me around for my talents. [He's shifting so that his head is on her shoulder instead.] I still did it and I ruined him. Why do I ruin good people? [He's going to just be feeling sorry for himself for a few minutes.]

I must have lost the memo on who else you 'ruined'. And you shouldn't talk about people like they are toys. You didn't ruin him, ruined people don't go to see Hairspray. They go to see the Phantom, maybe.

We're not even going to talk about everything wrong with that sentence.

...sorry, habit. I'm not handling this well, am I? I should just...let him go. Let him move on.

I really don't know, Ryan, it depends on what you want. If you want Chad back, go for it. But keep in mind what that will mean.

It means breaking up with someone who is literally the most perfect match for me?

Even your sister likes Jack. And it'd also mean having to deal with Chad's coming out.

Sharpay likes Jack because he knew the difference between her last season Maddens and her this season Choos. [A beat.] ...well he came out to Troy. That counts for something, doesn't it?

Yeah, it does. He came out to his parents, too, according to Gabi. And I don't even doubt that he'll come out in general sooner or later, from what you showed me. But my point is that coming out won't make his life easier, at least not for a long time. You and Jack, here in New York with our friends, well. Gaylandia, I think Troy called it?

[He chuckles.] Gaylandia, indeed. [He's just sliding from her shoulder and laying on his back on the floor then.]

You're right though. It won't be easy for him and that means it won't be easy for me which sucks. Am I making a mistake by even considering trying this thing with Chad again when Jack's right here, hot and willing? Or am I smart for being so consistent in my crush on Chad?

I don't know if a crush is ever smart.

It goes back to my initial point. You just have to figure out what you want and, no, it can't be all.

[She looks at him and sighs.]

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