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[theplaymaker]

You'd make a great couple, but for that you'd have to be willing to work it out and wait it out. Which does include being 2000 miles away from him and not really able to actively help each other.

It would also mean no sex for you. Because I doubt you could talk him into an open relationship.

Love can be for everyone. It's just a matter of luck and commitment.

[choreographics]

That would be my crux. I'm slutty and yet I'm clingy.

...you know that that's the only real difference between Jack and Chad? Jack's here. And Jack's kind of an amazing lover and I guess I'll find out if I can handle celibacy when I'm on the road.

I've got more skill than luck. What then?

[theplaymaker]

I don't know, I think they'd both agree that there are a couple more differences. Are you sure you'll actually be celibate while on tour?

And I think the luck is mostly just needed to find someone. Then it's a matter of compromising and figuring things out.

[choreographics]

[And suddenly everything is less important as he hones in on something, and he reaches up to stop her hand in his hair]

Are you asking me if I think I can keep from cheating on my boyfriend while I'm away?

[theplaymaker]

I think you can do whatever you want, Ryan.

I'm asking you if you think you'll want to.

[choreographics]

What the fuck, Kels. Why is that a question? Obviously if I'm in a relationship I'm not going to. [and so begins round two of "Ryan you're not making sense."]

[theplaymaker]

I should start writing down everything you say in a conversation so I can read it back to you.

You were talking about dating two guys at once without letting them know just a few minutes ago.

[choreographics]

...[He's just going to drag both of his hands down his face and roll on the floor for a moment.] Dating is seriously the worst idea I've ever had. I liked when I was still in the closet and focused on my dancing. That was nice. That was easy.

[theplaymaker]

You're such a drama queen. [She takes Ryan's problems very seriously, really, but sometimes it's just really funny.]

[choreographics]

Okay let me ask you this. [But he pauses long enough to pinch her leg. Rude.] If you had two really, really attractive men vying for your attention and you were vying for theirs and they were both legitimately perfect with flaws, and yes, Kelsi, I am aware that's not possible, how would you choose the right one? I've never had to make choices. I always get my first pick. I've never had to have options.

[theplaymaker]

[Alright, now she's laughing.] Are your diamond shoes too tight, too?

[But focus, this is her friend after all.]

Follow your heart, I'd say. But what do I know, I want to write musicals for a living.

[choreographics]

Don't be a bitch. [He's suddenly pulling the ice cream out of her hand and knocking her over, squirming so that he's trapping her against his chest and Kelsi has essentially become a cuddle-pillow.

You signed up for this, Kelsi. Good luck.]

...but I like musicals. Musicals make sense and everybody gets a happily ever after, mostly. Sort of. Maybe 50/50.

[theplaymaker]

[She does try to escape, but the thing about being a tiny girl means that it doesn't really make any difference if your best friend happens to be a lithely built dancer type, she still doesn't stand a chance.

And she's not really trying that hard.]

Hm. Let's think about it again. You have a boyfriend and you think he's perfect. You already broke Chad's heart once. Kind of in a shattering and stomping on it way and, yes, I know I helped talk you into it and I stand by all I said, but...

Might be best not to repeat it.

[choreographics]

[He's just force-cuddling at the moment because he knows she's right. She's right and he really, really doesn't like it.]

...yeah maybe not. The cool thing is that he turned me down from hanging out outside of the show, so maybe I won't actually have to talk to him.

[A beat.] Well. It's not cool. I just want my friend back at this point but it's always going to be awkward now.

[theplaymaker]

Hey, you never know. We're pretty good friends, wouldn't you say?

[She doesn't really mind the cuddling at all, not when it's obvious that Ryan needs it. And it's not as if it's not nice.]

Maybe if we can hang out as a group.

[choreographics]

Yeah, but did I rip out your heart and tap-dance all over it before shoving it back into your chest? We're different. [Different in that he's never felt awkward with Kelsi. Different in that Kelsi's his closest companion and biggest confidant and has never really made him feel weird about how crazy and neurotic he is thanks to being an Evans twin.]

Maybe...I don't know. You, me and him? Plus you know my sister's going to be there. I don't think he'll want to be in a room alone with all of us.

[theplaymaker]

Oh no. Just made me swoon a bit. And wonder if my gaydar's broken.

Hm, you're right. We could kill him, but what would we do with the body? Maybe Zeke can come or any of the Wildcats.

[choreographics]

No, I'm just a good actor.

To help us bury the body? [Wait, no, backtrack.] Oh. Maybe! There's a reason I announced it today..it lines up with the start of summer vacation. I was sort of hoping maybe Gabi would come. She has a tendency to make peace with pretty much everybody, but the problem with Gabi coming is then Troy would automatically follow and I'm still sort of afraid of being in the same room with him.

[theplaymaker]

You are a great actor.

Oh, come on. You don't think Troy would ever do anything, do you? You probably just have to make a sad face and he'd apologize, even if you just kicked his shin for no reason.

[choreographics]

I have to be in order to stay zen, to be honest.

No, not really. I've never actually seen him mad before that email, I left it alone after an initial response, and he came back to me a few weeks later to apologize to me. He's seriously got a problem with being the nicest guy ever.

[theplaymaker]

If I was you, I'd probably be more worried about Chad flipping out, he's the one with the anger management issues. But he likes you still, so your pretty face is probably safe.

[choreographics]

Probably. [He just burrows his face into Kelsi's neck.] ...it's probably a good thing we're only going to be in Albuquerque for a few days. And that I'll be busy. I don't know if I could stand more than that. The tour's from the middle of May to the end of December. Almost seven months on the road and a semester behind at Juilliard. It's so worth it though.

[theplaymaker]

It's definitely worth it. I'm so proud of you. And, hey, make sure to study some of the bigger roles. It's a long tour and you never know.

[choreographics]

I jokingly told our Link Larkin that I'm his make-believe understudy. [He just makes a face.] Let's be real, Kels. All of these dancers are great. Even if something happened I wouldn't be doing anything bigger than I am. It's sort of humbling, actually. I made it on my own to dance with some of the best dancers I've ever seen.

[theplaymaker]

You are one of the best dancers your age to make it that far and you're going to learn so much the next few months. You can use a little humbling, but don't you dare grow too humble. You're something special, Ryan.