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[choreographics]

We're not even going to talk about everything wrong with that sentence.

...sorry, habit. I'm not handling this well, am I? I should just...let him go. Let him move on.

[theplaymaker]

I really don't know, Ryan, it depends on what you want. If you want Chad back, go for it. But keep in mind what that will mean.

[choreographics]

It means breaking up with someone who is literally the most perfect match for me?

[theplaymaker]

Even your sister likes Jack. And it'd also mean having to deal with Chad's coming out.

[choreographics]

Sharpay likes Jack because he knew the difference between her last season Maddens and her this season Choos. [A beat.] ...well he came out to Troy. That counts for something, doesn't it?

[theplaymaker]

Yeah, it does. He came out to his parents, too, according to Gabi. And I don't even doubt that he'll come out in general sooner or later, from what you showed me. But my point is that coming out won't make his life easier, at least not for a long time. You and Jack, here in New York with our friends, well. Gaylandia, I think Troy called it?

[choreographics]

[He chuckles.] Gaylandia, indeed. [He's just sliding from her shoulder and laying on his back on the floor then.]

You're right though. It won't be easy for him and that means it won't be easy for me which sucks. Am I making a mistake by even considering trying this thing with Chad again when Jack's right here, hot and willing? Or am I smart for being so consistent in my crush on Chad?

[theplaymaker]

I don't know if a crush is ever smart.

It goes back to my initial point. You just have to figure out what you want and, no, it can't be all.

[She looks at him and sighs.]

[choreographics]

[He looks thoughtful for a moment]

Why not?

[theplaymaker]

Because if you try to date both Jack and Chad at the same time karma will kick you in the balls. Or me, if karma lets me down.

[choreographics]

Other people do it all the time!

[theplaymaker]

Oh my God, Ryan, will you stop and listen to yourself?!

[choreographics]

[He shuts up for a second...pause...reflect...and he looks vaguely mollified suddenly.]

...oh. I...oh. God, what am I doing...? This is crazy. This is completely crazy, it's Chad Danforth. We're not at East anymore, this shouldn't even be a problem.

[theplaymaker]

What shouldn't even be a problem?

[But since he's stopped talking like a huge asshole, Kelsi actually goes back to petting his hair.]

[choreographics]

Being in love with Chad. I'm not in high school anymore. I know I wish I was but I need to grow up and move on. Everyone else did. I can't just keep chasing something that isn't going to work out, it's not fair to anybody. Why am I still in love with him? I haven't even seen him since Troy's party. [But there's a slightly comforted sound at the hair-petting.]

[theplaymaker]

Because you've been dreaming about him for a long time and you probably still think he'd magically make everything better when Jack is having a not perfect moment.

That and he admittedly doesn't look bad.

[choreographics]

Maybe. I've been in love with him since the summer after junior year. I have an easy time saying I've been in love, but not actually "I love him." I think it's weird. Love is for people like Troy and Gabi. Not me.

I want it though…I want it a lot.

He's hot. He's hot and funny and ridiculously naive in all of the ways I'm not and the sad thing is I know he would have done everything I asked of him if I'd been patient enough. This is sort of my own demise.

[theplaymaker]

You'd make a great couple, but for that you'd have to be willing to work it out and wait it out. Which does include being 2000 miles away from him and not really able to actively help each other.

It would also mean no sex for you. Because I doubt you could talk him into an open relationship.

Love can be for everyone. It's just a matter of luck and commitment.

[choreographics]

That would be my crux. I'm slutty and yet I'm clingy.

...you know that that's the only real difference between Jack and Chad? Jack's here. And Jack's kind of an amazing lover and I guess I'll find out if I can handle celibacy when I'm on the road.

I've got more skill than luck. What then?

[theplaymaker]

I don't know, I think they'd both agree that there are a couple more differences. Are you sure you'll actually be celibate while on tour?

And I think the luck is mostly just needed to find someone. Then it's a matter of compromising and figuring things out.

[choreographics]

[And suddenly everything is less important as he hones in on something, and he reaches up to stop her hand in his hair]

Are you asking me if I think I can keep from cheating on my boyfriend while I'm away?

[theplaymaker]

I think you can do whatever you want, Ryan.

I'm asking you if you think you'll want to.

[choreographics]

What the fuck, Kels. Why is that a question? Obviously if I'm in a relationship I'm not going to. [and so begins round two of "Ryan you're not making sense."]

[theplaymaker]

I should start writing down everything you say in a conversation so I can read it back to you.

You were talking about dating two guys at once without letting them know just a few minutes ago.

[choreographics]

...[He's just going to drag both of his hands down his face and roll on the floor for a moment.] Dating is seriously the worst idea I've ever had. I liked when I was still in the closet and focused on my dancing. That was nice. That was easy.