I can't. I can't breathe. Oh god I am actually hyperventilating WHY THE HELL DON'T I HAVE A PAPER BAG?!
Okay. Okay so I posted about the Hairspray tour on Facebook and he sent me an email and was all HEY would you mind seeing me when you're in town and I'm like UH DUH and then we started talking about stuff and then he mentioned he'd let me know if he needed two tickets and I sort of just ignored it because for all I know he could be bringing Troy but then he was suddenly like hey I want to ask you something but I don't know if I should and me being me was like "SURE CHAD IT'S OKAY" and then he dropped that on me.
Holy shit. I'm going to be sick. Everything is suddenly very, very wrong in the world.
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Can't even fathom song lyrics, it's THAT BAD
WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK????????
I'll provide things I'm working on
Now from the start.
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Holy shit. I'm going to be sick. Everything is suddenly very, very wrong in the world.
living in somebody's shadow and then stepping out to shine
...hah. Sounds like me and Sharpay.
there's no need to take it slow when everything can be mine
...these are new ones? I like it
leave behind whatever I don't need and keep whatever I want
You...wrote me a theme song didn't you.
larger than life, stronger than you, unaffected, nonchalant
I wish I knew the rest so I could sing along
the show must go on and it always will
I'm starting to lose my mind a little...
but beneath all that I am myself still
And it's not a me I want to see
and I might act brave and try to be strong
...but in the end? I was wrong.
while deep down I just want to belong
Let's face it, I'm just not that strong
Oh, Ryan...
...<3
<3!
<3!!! Seriously I don't have enough emotes to express it
I also take applause!
You'll get some soon, promise
I better
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Woke up today feeling the way that I always do
I need you here. I will personally fly you out here I just really, really need you here.
Hungry for something that I can't eat
I'll be there, just tell me what flight.
Then I hear that beat
I'll text you the info and I'll see you at the theater tomorrow. Get packing. Do you need a hotel too or are you staying at your parents?
The rhythm of town
Starts calling me down
It's like a message from
High above~
Oh, oh, oh, pulling me out
To the smiles and the streets that I love <3
<3
Flights!
Defying gravity!
Incoming text message from T. Bolton
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Also going away from tags for an hour or so bbl
see you then!
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You're in LA now, aren't you? I guess it makes some sense.
Still. What, why, how?
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text to kelsi, second night of hairspray in LA
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What the hell am I doing?
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Email, second day in NY, up to you if Chad told her Troy's in the city yet :3
I'm going with no, he didn't get to it yet!
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Or gummi worms. You can't go wrong with gummi worms.
What are you doing with your day so far?
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text, shortly after Gabriella's to Ry around Christmas
Gabi's going to NY
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Look at this! (Email 12/18)
:D
I'm looking!
:D
Re: I'm looking!
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(I laughed for half a minute, you win)
(I'm very proud, I had to think about that for a second...)
(it's the best of things)
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Text, post-Chad's diary email
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