How much I want to send his parents pictures of us making out? No I'm lying. A lot? Nothing? Currently, it's how much I wish I'd double-checked so I didn't send you the whole conversation.
Knowing Shane he'd want us in fox costumes to represent the urban jungle or something. I know I have it but I also want people to be fine with it. Including his parents.
Why the hell is everyone saying that? Why is EVERYONE saying they're sorry they couldn't help? Guys it's fine. It's not like anyone would have done anything back then anyway...we were all too different. It's okay.
You'd look so cute with fox ears! Aww, I should talk him into that, that's adorable. I feel his artistic method is lost on me, but I'm down with cute guys in cute costumes.
His parents will come around. They didn't throw him out, right? And they will see you making him happy, so far they've only seen him be miserable after coming out.
Because saying you're sorry is better than 'Ha, sucker, too bad!'
God you're just as bad as he is! What if I got him to dress you up in, like, a unicorn costume? Also I'd look adorable as hell with fox ears, you're right. Not sure Chad would be down with that though.
...no they didn't but they're also still plotting how to get him back together with Taylor which is almost worse. That's basically like saying your child's not capable of making his own decisions.
Well I wouldn't expect anyone to say that either but it's fine. I'm over it. Like. 150% over it. So over it I don't even remember what I'm talking about.
I'd be a fucking precious unicorn. Also, who knows, Chad might surprise you. Anyway, you got him to wear a clown costume before you two were even dating, I don't think that would be what keeps it from happening.
That is it. Pretty much. They don't think he knows what he wants and they want what's best for him. They don't understand, so they're scared it's wrong. It will get better, I'm sure.
I don't really want to have this conversation when I can't hug you, anyway.
You would! I'm definitely going to have to bring up the idea when I get back. You'd be the sparkliest most precious unicorn in all the land. You've got a point. I still can't believe half of the shit I got away with before we were dating.
I want to make them understand. How am I supposed to do that? I need to make them understand I'm better for him than Taylor ever was despite white privilege and me having a dick and whatever.
I don't need a hug! Guys, it's fine. Everything is fine, it's over.
Such a great unicorn, you bet I'd be graceful. And I have no idea, I think he just can't say no to you or something. I'd like to have your powers.
They will get it! As far as I know he's never really mentioned you and then after the kiss you weren't actually together, either. They'll see how happy you make him. Also isn't having your son date someone rich a positive thing?
Maybe I just like hugging you! Why would you deny me that? :(
My powers come from being an Evans to be honest. I don't think they're powers I can share with anyone else except Sharpay. You do not want to be like my sister, I guarantee that.
That's what he said, too. And I guess that's fair even though my mom knows. You'd think so but it has something to do with us flaunting our money I think? I don't know. I don't really understand it.
You can hug me for hugs, not sympathy hugs. There's a difference :|
Well, damn it. I'll just keep being my mousy self then, but at least you love me!
They might still need more time, but him actually having a boyfriend who makes happy is a lot better than just the knowledge of him saying he's gay and feeling miserable.
I'll give you the best of hugs and I can tell you about the time my notebook was thrown into the toilet.
Even if that boyfriend's a white, blonde rich brat? We'll see how things work out in the end. I guess the only reason I'm not more terrified is I know he'll stick with me anyway...
It will be fine, Ryan. I have a not terrible feeling about it. I'm sure it will be fine. But you are definitely right, Chad is going to stay with you no matter what. And you'll be with him.
For how long he wants? I never thought I'd hear you talk like this so soon. You're great together, though, I'm glad you figured things out. Now I don't have to write sad love songs anymore.
Oh, it's not a big deal, I wasn't a very interesting target so it didn't happen a lot or anything.
It's not so much that I don't want to say together forever, it's just that I don't really believe in the concept of forever anymore.
...maybe I'm not fully over everything that's happened. Don't tell him though, okay?
Anyway yes I know but that's still not okay, Kelsi. But I can't lie and say I would have stopped it because you and I were just...different. We were such different people back then and do you ever wonder if Troy and Gabriella really realize what they did by crossing cliques?
Actually I just meant that I'm surprised to hear you say as long as he wants, instead of thinking your mind might change soon.
What parts do you think you're not over yet?
I don't think Troy and Gabriella really know, because Troy has never been an outsider and, well, Gabriella is brilliant and beautiful, it's not as if she'd have gotten the usual nerd treatment at any point.
I guess it doesn't matter that much, all things considered. I'll get over it, isn't that the important thing?
They're insane. They drive me insane sometimes because they're too involved with each other to really notice the chain effect that they caused. Sharpay tried bullying Gabriella but it didn't work out. And Troy...Troy's always been the most popular boy in our grade followed closely by Chad. I just wonder how they can be so unaware of how much everything changes because of callbacks.
Troy is very unaware of it all, he thinks it was pretty much solely Gabriella's doing. But he was always strange that way, most popular boy in school but nice to everyone anyway.
Maybe, but I don't think it matters that much at this point to be honest. Insecurities I've created myself and all that.
Sometimes I want to shake him and see if that triggers anything. No wonder everybody had a crush on him back then. Though you have to admit that Gabriella did help a lot.
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No I'm lying.
A lot? Nothing?
Currently, it's how much I wish I'd double-checked so I didn't send you the whole conversation.
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Don't worry about it, Ryan. It's mostly nothing new. You know that I took note of you a long time before you even knew I existed.
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Wait what does that even mean in the context of this?
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I was a weird girl no one liked or noticed before Junior year, I know about bullying. But I'm sorry, Ryan.
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And I'm sure my sister didn't help with that! I probably should have stopped her sooner, but...you know. High school.
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Don't worry about it. Generally I wasn't enough of a blight on your sister's radar. I'm sorry I didn't help you somehow. Or, you know, couldn't.
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Why the hell is everyone saying that? Why is EVERYONE saying they're sorry they couldn't help? Guys it's fine. It's not like anyone would have done anything back then anyway...we were all too different. It's okay.
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His parents will come around. They didn't throw him out, right? And they will see you making him happy, so far they've only seen him be miserable after coming out.
Because saying you're sorry is better than 'Ha, sucker, too bad!'
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...no they didn't but they're also still plotting how to get him back together with Taylor which is almost worse. That's basically like saying your child's not capable of making his own decisions.
Well I wouldn't expect anyone to say that either but it's fine. I'm over it. Like. 150% over it. So over it I don't even remember what I'm talking about.
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That is it. Pretty much. They don't think he knows what he wants and they want what's best for him. They don't understand, so they're scared it's wrong. It will get better, I'm sure.
I don't really want to have this conversation when I can't hug you, anyway.
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I want to make them understand. How am I supposed to do that? I need to make them understand I'm better for him than Taylor ever was despite white privilege and me having a dick and whatever.
I don't need a hug! Guys, it's fine. Everything is fine, it's over.
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They will get it! As far as I know he's never really mentioned you and then after the kiss you weren't actually together, either. They'll see how happy you make him. Also isn't having your son date someone rich a positive thing?
Maybe I just like hugging you! Why would you deny me that? :(
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That's what he said, too. And I guess that's fair even though my mom knows. You'd think so but it has something to do with us flaunting our money I think? I don't know. I don't really understand it.
You can hug me for hugs, not sympathy hugs. There's a difference :|
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They might still need more time, but him actually having a boyfriend who makes happy is a lot better than just the knowledge of him saying he's gay and feeling miserable.
I'll give you the best of hugs and I can tell you about the time my notebook was thrown into the toilet.
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Even if that boyfriend's a white, blonde rich brat? We'll see how things work out in the end. I guess the only reason I'm not more terrified is I know he'll stick with me anyway...
...wait, what? What happened?
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It will be fine, Ryan. I have a not terrible feeling about it. I'm sure it will be fine. But you are definitely right, Chad is going to stay with you no matter what. And you'll be with him.
Well, bullying happens to girls too.
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It'll be fine. Everything's going to be okay. I know that. It'll be okay. Chad and I are in this together for...well, for however long as he wants.
No I know that I just meant...you never told me. What happened back then?
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Oh, it's not a big deal, I wasn't a very interesting target so it didn't happen a lot or anything.
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...maybe I'm not fully over everything that's happened. Don't tell him though, okay?
Anyway yes I know but that's still not okay, Kelsi. But I can't lie and say I would have stopped it because you and I were just...different. We were such different people back then and do you ever wonder if Troy and Gabriella really realize what they did by crossing cliques?
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What parts do you think you're not over yet?
I don't think Troy and Gabriella really know, because Troy has never been an outsider and, well, Gabriella is brilliant and beautiful, it's not as if she'd have gotten the usual nerd treatment at any point.
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I guess it doesn't matter that much, all things considered. I'll get over it, isn't that the important thing?
They're insane. They drive me insane sometimes because they're too involved with each other to really notice the chain effect that they caused. Sharpay tried bullying Gabriella but it didn't work out. And Troy...Troy's always been the most popular boy in our grade followed closely by Chad. I just wonder how they can be so unaware of how much everything changes because of callbacks.
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And I don't know, do you want to talk about it?
Troy is very unaware of it all, he thinks it was pretty much solely Gabriella's doing. But he was always strange that way, most popular boy in school but nice to everyone anyway.
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Maybe, but I don't think it matters that much at this point to be honest. Insecurities I've created myself and all that.
Sometimes I want to shake him and see if that triggers anything. No wonder everybody had a crush on him back then. Though you have to admit that Gabriella did help a lot.
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Oh, she did. Without her none of it would ever have happened, anyway. But it did need both of them for it. Did you ever wonder if Chad crushed on him?
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Of course I've wondered. He's told me no because Troy's like his brother and he got mad when I said I sort of had a thing for Troy.
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