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while deep down I just want to belong

[theplaymaker]

This is very productive, I'm almost finished with the song.

Also, I'm sorry, but I think Troy isn't just straight, he's literally just Troy and Gabriella. You never stood a chance.

Don't tell him you love him unless it feels right, Ryan. You're not going to fix things by saying something you're not sure about. Two months isn't that long, even if it seems like eternity to you by comparison.

Will do! Maybe I can be in Albuquerque around the time, depends on when exams and everything happen.

Let's face it, I'm just not that strong

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See? Me having a weekly crisis is really good for everybody. You get to write songs. Sharpay sometimes gets to boss me around. It works out for everyone but me and my head.

Oh no I absolutely agree. And I love Gabi, you know that. I wouldn't dream of breaking them up, that's like kicking a sick puppy.

It is an eternity. And what if it never feels right? What then? He's good to me, Kels. Really good…he's sweet, charming, creative, funny, good in bed, his arms are perfect, his smile is perfect, he's even nice to my sister (though I think out of politeness, but it counts.) We actually spend part of this weekend just hanging out on his couch watching movies and cuddling. CUDDLING. He's legitimately perfect so why am I still stuck on Chad? Why. I want an answer.

Try your best because I might need your help, I can't take it.

[There will then be an incoming attachment of the emails with Chad.]

I also refuse to ask Sharpay for help with Chad because I'm afraid she'll actually kill him, but. I'm lost.

Oh, Ryan...

[theplaymaker]

before I thought there would never be a chance
that there was no way I could ever make you dance
so when you started moving I just couldn't turn away
but you were still stuck somewhere I didn't want to stay

there will always be 'what if' on my mind
when I think of what I've left behind
just a thought but it does sting
because you could have been everything


There you go, that's it.

...<3

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...beautiful as usual, Kelsi. Congratulations. I want a copy of this with music when you get a chance. You know. For the road.

Can you do me a favor and just lie to me that everything's going to be fine?

<3!

[theplaymaker]

Only if you'll sing, Ryan.

Everything is going to be fine, because you'll always have me.

<3!!! Seriously I don't have enough emotes to express it

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Like that's even a question. Maybe not right now, I think my voice might crack.

You're seriously the best and I stand by I'd be a huge wreck without you. Would it be too dramatic to ask you never to leave me?

I also take applause!

[theplaymaker]

You're my male lead, Ryan, whatever would I even do without you?

Is the door open? Because I'm coming up the stairs.

You'll get some soon, promise

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Find someone less pretty than me? And less talented?

Everything's open and unlocked. Come on in.

I better

[theplaymaker]

I don't settle for less, I dated an Evans!

There now.

[theplaymaker]

[When Kelsi comes through the door just a few moments later, she is indeed carrying a paper bag and another bag containing ice cream.]

Do you still need the bag?

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[Ryan's currently alone, still in his yoga pants and a baggy dark green hooded sweater stretched into cat pose. He doesn't look up from the floor when Kelsi comes in, but there's a pathetic sort of sound.]

Yes. I still feel like I'm choking somehow.

[theplaymaker]

[She hands the bag to him wordlessly before sitting down next to him and starting to pet his hair. Only for a few moments, because then she is opening up the ice cream.]

Do you want me to tell you that there's no chance of him finding a boyfriend?

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[Being the dramatic child he is, he hauls himself into a sitting position and brings the bag to his mouth, taking a few deep breaths while Kelsi pets his hair. He continues even after she stops, eying the ice cream with vague interest.]

…I didn't ask you to lie to me yet, so no. Why?

[theplaymaker]

Because I don't think there is a lot of chance of it happening, so don't worry. He probably just asked you so you'd get jealous.

[She leans her head on Ryan's shoulder while licking the spoon.]

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[He raises an eyebrow, still holding the bag but shifting to accommodate Kelsi's positioning.]

You think he's devious enough to do that? Or smart enough?

[theplaymaker]

It's not as if he had to look far for inspiration, given it's what you did with him.

[She spoons up more ice cream, glancing at Ryan.]

Remember the plan he thought up junior year?

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Yeah, but I didn't make up Jack. Jack is very much real and was very much a potential boyfriend when Chad showed up. This is just rude.

[But he catches her eye, opening his mouth. Yes, he's expecting her to feed him, he's feeling that pathetic. ]

The plan to break up Troy and Gabriella? I wasn't really involved in that, I was sort of on the opposite side following my sister's scheme to break them up. But I know he's not exactly the evil mastermind, that's my department. Still…why?

[theplaymaker]

[She laughs but obligingly holds the spoon out in front of him.]

Because people like to know that they're not the only ones hurting. It's spiteful, but it's true. You know he was ready to get back together with you when you emailed him about telling Troy.

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[He turns his head, capturing the spoon and eating the bite of ice cream. At least he's grinning slightly.]

I know. I know, I know, I'm a bad person and I should feel bad. And I do. I didn't…bottom line, I didn't think about it. And maybe I was scared so I went the easy route which just happened to have Jack at the end. I've tried to keep it quiet so he doesn't freak out about it but apparently he might be just fine.

[theplaymaker]

You seemed happy with Jack. Still do, really, unless Chad suddenly enters the picture again.

Do you really think Chad doesn't know that you're with Jack?

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It's because I am happy with him. I guess I'd just like to think I'd be happy with Chad, too.

...no, he knows. I know he knows, that's what sucks.

[theplaymaker]

In that case, have you considered a threesome?

[There's a smile that definitely gives away that she's kidding.]

I imagine it sucks for him, too.

[choreographics]

Jack would be into it. [There's an echoing smile that says he's absolutely not kidding.] Not so sure about Chad though...has anyone else noticed that my boyfriend sort of looks like Chad's best friend?

Have you talked to him at all? I don't know if he's avoiding me or both of us.

[theplaymaker]

Yeah? I thought he wasn't exactly Chad's biggest fan. But I've noticed, I just didn't want to point it out in case you hadn't.

We've never really talked much and I imagine he now probably believes I talked you into dumping him, so I'm not sure how to strike up a conversation.

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Oh, he's not. I just know he'd do it if he thought it'd make me happy and maybe he's just as sexually crazed as I am. [A light shrug.] I didn't at first. I think I just noticed it one day when he put on one of my Wildcats shirts and then it hit me and now I'm sort of wondering what that says about me.

…that may or may not be true. He figured out that you and I talked before I dumped him but. I don't know. I'm sort of just letting Troy handle everything, he's so wrapped up in his fantasy land I don't think he even notices. It's just that Chad's been pretty quiet lately, too.