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...I'll be honest? If Los Angeles hadn't happened, I would be coming home to Jack and picking up where I left off. Instead I've got a hot boyfriend and a great best friend to come back to instead.

[theplaymaker]

And you're happy with that, yes? I know you want everything, Ryan, but we talked about how sometimes that's just not possible.

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Of course I am. I still want everything, but that doesn't necessarily include Jack.

[theplaymaker]

Good, because if you make Chad cry I'll be very cross.

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Shouldn't you be more concerned that Chad's going to make me cry?

[theplaymaker]

I really don't think Jack is his type.

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I'm not going to cheat on Chad. Or make him cry. Got it?

[theplaymaker]

Got it.

Then we can talk about everything else you sent me now.

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What's everything else??

[theplaymaker]

That was a very long string of emails you sent me.

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[There's a pause in messages as he goes to look back at his emails.]

...oh. Um.

[theplaymaker]

Do you want to talk?

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Are you really giving me a choice?

[theplaymaker]

Of course I am. I never force you to talk to me.

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Not sure what we'd need to talk about. Chad's parents still don't believe he's gay, we've talked about it.

[theplaymaker]

So that'd be one of the topics.

Racism, homophobia, bullying... Not a light conversation.

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...I don't even know what to talk about first. So. Yeah. All three of those topics sure did happen.

[theplaymaker]

What's on your mind the most right now?

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How much I want to send his parents pictures of us making out?
No I'm lying.
A lot? Nothing?
Currently, it's how much I wish I'd double-checked so I didn't send you the whole conversation.

[theplaymaker]

Apparently he wants to do the same, so at least you're in sync?

Don't worry about it, Ryan. It's mostly nothing new. You know that I took note of you a long time before you even knew I existed.

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I might ask Shane to take some pictures of us when I get home.

Wait what does that even mean in the context of this?

[theplaymaker]

Oh, you should, I bet they'd come out beautifully!

I was a weird girl no one liked or noticed before Junior year, I know about bullying. But I'm sorry, Ryan.

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I want it. I want something cute and normal, is that so much to ask?

And I'm sure my sister didn't help with that! I probably should have stopped her sooner, but...you know. High school.

[theplaymaker]

Might be too much to ask from Shane, but artistic friends aside. No, Ryan, it's not and you have it. Promise.

Don't worry about it. Generally I wasn't enough of a blight on your sister's radar. I'm sorry I didn't help you somehow. Or, you know, couldn't.

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Knowing Shane he'd want us in fox costumes to represent the urban jungle or something. I know I have it but I also want people to be fine with it. Including his parents.

Why the hell is everyone saying that? Why is EVERYONE saying they're sorry they couldn't help? Guys it's fine. It's not like anyone would have done anything back then anyway...we were all too different. It's okay.