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Shouldn't you be more concerned that Chad's going to make me cry?

[theplaymaker]

I really don't think Jack is his type.

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I'm not going to cheat on Chad. Or make him cry. Got it?

[theplaymaker]

Got it.

Then we can talk about everything else you sent me now.

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What's everything else??

[theplaymaker]

That was a very long string of emails you sent me.

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[There's a pause in messages as he goes to look back at his emails.]

...oh. Um.

[theplaymaker]

Do you want to talk?

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Are you really giving me a choice?

[theplaymaker]

Of course I am. I never force you to talk to me.

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Not sure what we'd need to talk about. Chad's parents still don't believe he's gay, we've talked about it.

[theplaymaker]

So that'd be one of the topics.

Racism, homophobia, bullying... Not a light conversation.

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...I don't even know what to talk about first. So. Yeah. All three of those topics sure did happen.

[theplaymaker]

What's on your mind the most right now?

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How much I want to send his parents pictures of us making out?
No I'm lying.
A lot? Nothing?
Currently, it's how much I wish I'd double-checked so I didn't send you the whole conversation.

[theplaymaker]

Apparently he wants to do the same, so at least you're in sync?

Don't worry about it, Ryan. It's mostly nothing new. You know that I took note of you a long time before you even knew I existed.

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I might ask Shane to take some pictures of us when I get home.

Wait what does that even mean in the context of this?

[theplaymaker]

Oh, you should, I bet they'd come out beautifully!

I was a weird girl no one liked or noticed before Junior year, I know about bullying. But I'm sorry, Ryan.

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I want it. I want something cute and normal, is that so much to ask?

And I'm sure my sister didn't help with that! I probably should have stopped her sooner, but...you know. High school.

[theplaymaker]

Might be too much to ask from Shane, but artistic friends aside. No, Ryan, it's not and you have it. Promise.

Don't worry about it. Generally I wasn't enough of a blight on your sister's radar. I'm sorry I didn't help you somehow. Or, you know, couldn't.

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Knowing Shane he'd want us in fox costumes to represent the urban jungle or something. I know I have it but I also want people to be fine with it. Including his parents.

Why the hell is everyone saying that? Why is EVERYONE saying they're sorry they couldn't help? Guys it's fine. It's not like anyone would have done anything back then anyway...we were all too different. It's okay.

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You'd look so cute with fox ears! Aww, I should talk him into that, that's adorable. I feel his artistic method is lost on me, but I'm down with cute guys in cute costumes.

His parents will come around. They didn't throw him out, right? And they will see you making him happy, so far they've only seen him be miserable after coming out.

Because saying you're sorry is better than 'Ha, sucker, too bad!'

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God you're just as bad as he is! What if I got him to dress you up in, like, a unicorn costume? Also I'd look adorable as hell with fox ears, you're right. Not sure Chad would be down with that though.

...no they didn't but they're also still plotting how to get him back together with Taylor which is almost worse. That's basically like saying your child's not capable of making his own decisions.

Well I wouldn't expect anyone to say that either but it's fine. I'm over it. Like. 150% over it. So over it I don't even remember what I'm talking about.

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I'd be a fucking precious unicorn. Also, who knows, Chad might surprise you. Anyway, you got him to wear a clown costume before you two were even dating, I don't think that would be what keeps it from happening.

That is it. Pretty much. They don't think he knows what he wants and they want what's best for him. They don't understand, so they're scared it's wrong. It will get better, I'm sure.

I don't really want to have this conversation when I can't hug you, anyway.

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You would! I'm definitely going to have to bring up the idea when I get back. You'd be the sparkliest most precious unicorn in all the land. You've got a point. I still can't believe half of the shit I got away with before we were dating.

I want to make them understand. How am I supposed to do that? I need to make them understand I'm better for him than Taylor ever was despite white privilege and me having a dick and whatever.

I don't need a hug! Guys, it's fine. Everything is fine, it's over.